Jun 19, 2012

Whatever

I’m in a very unfabulous season of life. See that picture up there? It sums up my existence. And I’ve been guilty of despising it—my stay-at-home motherhood—failing to see His design, forgetting that He is using it to work out His perfect will for me. I’ve not taken it seriously; I haven’t treated it like it matters. I thought by now I’d be Dr. Manning. I thought by now I’d have it all together. I thought by now I’d be making a difference in the world. The problem is, I’ve been more focused on what I haven’t done than what...Read more +
Jun 18, 2012

Depression is a Vampire

Some anti-depressant commercials animate it, making it an amorphous blob with cute little sad eyes. Others show how depression hurts—how it is emotionally, physically, and mentally taxing, how it keeps you away from all you love. And yet others depict depressed people as wind-up dolls waiting for just the right medication to come along and twist the mechanism on their backs to help them get going again. But there’s something these commercials don’t show—the other people affected by depression. Depression doesn’t only control the person who has it; it impacts anyone and everyone who comes in contact with it. Until...Read more +
Jun 15, 2012

Promise

I have a little problem with trust. I don’t believe people. I want to. But I don’t. I can’t take a compliment. I have a hard time hearing positive things about myself. Why? Because of past experience, because I’m a pessimist, because of low self-esteem, because I don’t like to be vulnerable, because it feels wrong to think good things about myself, because people have ulterior motives, because, because, because. And I don’t like to admit it, but this pathological disbelief spills over. Sometimes I don’t believe God – that He really does want good things for me , that...Read more +
Jun 14, 2012

Summertime Blues: A Bit of Practical Advice

It happens this time every year. Without fail. And I hate it. It used to catch me off guard, punch me in the gut, send me reeling, staggering, whirling to the darkest corners of the bottom in a collapse that took me months to recover from. Not anymore. Oh, it still comes, but its ways have changed. We greet each other cordially these days – no more sneeking around, no more pummeling. I’ve learned to listen for it, to anticipate its arrival, to embrace it as a visitor I can learn from. I’ve come to understand the reasons why it’s...Read more +
Jun 13, 2012

Faithful

“His master replied, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share in your master’s happiness!” – Matthew 25:21 (NIV) Recently, I heard someone say he was glad the aforementioned verse says faithful rather than successful , because while success is not always possible, faithfulness is. But that doesn’t make it easy. Faithful stays when others leave; keeps working when everyone else quits; remains loyal and obedient when others get tired and find something new. Faithful doesn’t give up. Faithful doesn’t let go...Read more +
Jun 12, 2012

Blogiversary: What I've Learned About Myself

This week marks the first anniversary of my leap into the blogging world. At the time it seemed so serendipitous, but God’s good at that – disguising His divine purpose in what appears to be ordinary; wrapping life-changing opportunity with ribbons of the everyday, granting the chance for new hope through decisions made on a whim. That’s how I started blogging – on impulse. A friend suggested it, and without making my typical pros/cons list, over-analyzing, or coming up with a thousand reasons why I would fail, I tried it. I had never read a blog. I didn’t know anything...Read more +
Jun 11, 2012

What's in Your Wallet?

The currency of heaven is trust. – Barry Clardy What seems an eternity in line is finally rewarded with my turn at the register. Scanning each item carefully, the clerk makes small talk over the incessant beeping of bar codes. All I want is to go home – to grab my bags and leave – but she takes her sweet time, examining each package. “Are these good?” she asks, “I’ve always wanted to try them.” “Yeah” I answer with a half-hearted smile, all the while wishing she’d hurry up. “Really?” I think to myself, “Just scan in it and bag...Read more +
Jun 8, 2012

Words I Need to Know but Hate to Hear

Time, gradual, process – words I hate, words that are hard, words that are convicting – words He keeps sending my way. I don’t like waiting or going slow. I like right now. But really, all of life is a process. Babies aren’t born right after conception, dreams don’t become reality overnight, Rome wasn’t built in a day. All living things go through an incubation period – a time of growth, development, cultivation, and maturation. And just as much as the precious new gift needs time to progess and expand, we need that stage to prepare – to get ready...Read more +
Jun 7, 2012

Comfortable

Just yesterday I wrote about how lately I’ve felt like giving up, how I’m tired of the seemingly constant struggle between what I know to do and what I feel like doing, how nevertheless I will continue. And then at church last night the speaker talked about quitting, about how we are engaged in a battle, about how we must choose to keep fighting. We must finish to obtain the reward. We have to press on if we want the prize. Winners are not those who don’t fail, they are those who don’t quit. Then he made a statement I’ve...Read more +
Jun 4, 2012

Glass Houses

We all live in glass houses – Mounds of stones stacked on our lawns. Some ours, Some His, Some by others hurled, But only we can choose: Throw back, make war Construct prisons, confine Pile high, wall others out. Anchor firm, fortify Shape sculptures, build shrines Assemble stacks, trip others, Make doubt. We all live in glass houses – Mounds of stones stacked on our lawns. Some ours, Some His, Some by others hurled, But only we can choose. Words kill, words give life; they’re either poison or fruit – you choose. – Proverbs 18:21 (MSG)Read more +

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